Tuesday, May 17, 2005

A Graded Response.

Grades were posted online today. I just don't know why, even if I know I've done well in a class, I've always felt freaked out just before I check my grades. What made matters worse, the damn site took forever to load. So here I was sitting in front of my computer praying to every God known to man, sweating. It felt like an eternity. Finally when they appeared, I breathed a sigh of relief. I did well. I was certain I did well ahead of time. I don't know why I insist on giving myself a heart attack like this. These are the last grades I'll ever recieve from Berkeley. Thankfully everything turned out. I must have gotten lucky, or something...

Do you guys ever experience anything remotely similar to this? What freaks you out?

19 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

You always worry yourself sick with that stuff Vavoom. If you have to take an oral I bet you will be needing a breathing aid in the hall even though you crushed it.

2:36 PM  
Blogger dreadcow said...

I always got the same way before I checked my grades online back in college.

What gets me worried sick is before I go to anything new around here. For example, I was shaking in my combat boots before coming to my unit after basic training/infantry school. I was also turned into a quivering pile of goo the night before Air Assault School. I didn't have ANYTHING to worry about.

Now, the butterflies in the stomach? I LOVE that feeling. I thrive on it. As we sat on the white bus going to basic training, about to endure hell on earth, I had a shit eating grin on my face. Haha!

4:44 PM  
Blogger Vavoom said...

Ah dread, that's what I love about you. The only shit eating happens in my pants when confronted with such things. Next time I'm in such a situation, I'll try and follow your advice -- put a wide shit eating grin on my face and bear it.

5:39 PM  
Blogger Raine said...

Things usually go well, but it's the "just before" anything social or anything involving an evaluation--having friends over for dinner, going to someone's for dinner, performance evaluation interview with the boss, and especially giving speeches. My boss knows I detest giving speeches, and so that task has been given to a co-worker.

Glad your grades were fine.

6:00 PM  
Blogger thc said...

Congrats. The only grade that freaked me out was for the CFP exam. Waiting six weeks for that was excruciating.

6:11 PM  
Blogger FantasticAlice said...

well other than my acute yet strange fear of mayonnaise... yep, you read it right. I fear my bills... strangest thing, I swear to vishnu that my somehow someone out there is going to try to make my pay more than what I am suppose to or that I am going to have to pay massive amounts of money all at once for several different things.

7:45 PM  
Blogger Teri said...

I totally agree on this one with you Vavoom. I always freak out about my grades, even though I know I did well on the test. For me it is being a perfectionist that causes me to worry about not getting an A. I also really stress when it comes time to take the test even though I know the material well. I guess I suffer from test and grade anxiety.
I still haven't read the part of your blog that explains why you are leaving Berkeley yet.

7:55 PM  
Blogger dreadcow said...

Alice, you've got to be s***ting me!! I have a friend back home who is actually scared of mayonaise. When we worked in the bar together and she got food for herself I always put a little dish of mayo on it and she'd freak out. Haha, thanks for reminding me!!

8:36 PM  
Blogger Moose said...

Grades don't bother me so much. Now missing project deadlines, that'll stress me out.

8:57 PM  
Blogger Rae said...

I fear myself mostly. I am definitely my own worst enemy. I am extremely impulsive and have little regard for consequences. Though I'm not sure if that's a bad thing.

10:28 PM  
Blogger dahvid said...

i find anticipating my future scary O.o

10:37 PM  
Blogger RT said...

Well, seeing how I just went through some, I'd have to say that job interviews are pretty nerve-racking. Although, I guess that in a sense, they're a lot like grades. You know your abilities and what you should expect, it's just a matter of time to see if you measure up... But when you have so much riding on it, that waiting time can drive you insane!

As far as pure terror goes, Raine pegged mine. Public speaking. Just the thought of it makes me queasy! I even gave up my public speaking course on the first day because -yep, you guessed it- I found out that I would have to give a speech, lol.

BTW! Congrats on the high marks! Luck had nothing to do with it, when you're brilliant, you're brilliant... Deal with it. :o)

3:22 AM  
Blogger RT said...

PS: Hey Teri, if you find the post about why he's leaving Berkley, could you point it out to me please? I'm looking for it also!

(as well as a reason for why Mrs Vavoom is still commenting as "anonymous"... What's up with that?)

3:37 AM  
Blogger Jenn said...

Meeting someone that's heard about me previous to meeting them! Like a friend of a friend, or parents of guy I might be dating. (That sounds like I date alot, I don't. Just to clear things up.) Butit's always the good butterflies and I'm not a shy nor quiet person, so after about a whole 2 minutes I'm like, "blah blah blah."

3:38 AM  
Blogger Vavoom said...

Teri and RT: I'm leaving Berkeley b/c of a *really* bad situation I had with my former graduate advisor. When I say bad, I mean really really bad! Take a gander at:
http://tedrowdrive.blogspot.com/2005/04/were-outta-here.html#comments
It should fill you in on most of the pertinent details. Worry not, my next gig is good. Really good. An upgrade of sorts, methinks.

My wife usually comments as anonymous b/c it's convenient. She's an amazing gal. I'll be writing a post about her sometime in the near future.

5:03 AM  
Blogger Megan said...

Every time I check my grades or my bank balance I get that feeling...even though I know theres no reason to freak, I still get panicky. What if I have completely miscalculated everything?!? It could happen! Of course, it never has...

12:13 PM  
Blogger Rattie said...

Thank god/dess/diety/whoever checking-my-grades days are over! But in this department after a student defends anything (i.e. proposal, dissertation) the faculty makes the poor student leave the room while they decide to fail or pass s/he - that waiting is nothing short of torture!

7:07 PM  
Blogger An80sNut said...

I'm going to have to do a post on mine soon. It'd take up a lot of room but I stress more in pre-arranged social situations where disappointment is expected. Vague, confusing... it won't be after this episode of Soap.

11:27 PM  
Blogger Lady of the House said...

Oh geeze. I do that all the time! Even though I know what grade I'm going to get, I still panic, worry, and hope that it's what I thought it was going to be. It gets even worse if the server’s down. At least I only have to go through that a few more times. I (theoretically) graduate in the Fall!

12:40 AM  

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