Friday, June 03, 2005

Up In Smoke.


That's it. It's over. I'm going on the patch. No more smoking for me. I'm sick of stinking like smoke. I'm sick waking up each morning, thinking of cigarettes. I can't stand the crappy scratchy feeling I have in my throat. I hate smoking around friends and loved ones, watching smoke get blown their direction on accident.

For those of you that know me, you know that I quit smoking for six months and resumed a couple months after I parted ways with my former A-hole advisor. I'm going to try again. I can only pray that this time I'll finally beat this stupid habit once and for all.

They say that when you quit smoking it's like losing an old friend. Nonsense. For me, it's more like I'm losing a fantastic drug that can calm me down at light of a match. I have plenty to look forward to -- no longer will my clothing stink (well, I'll still have my natural B.O. stink... but it won't be commingled with a cigarette stink), no longer will my friends have to wait around while I smoke in cold weather, no longer will I spend heaps of money on smokes.

I'm gonna beat this stupid habit. I have to.

29 Comments:

Blogger Andrew said...

Good for you!!! I used to smoke anywhere from 40 to 100 a day (the latter if I was drinking), for about 15 years. Not 'lights' but 'heavies' like Camel unfiltered or roll-you-owns.

I haven't had a puff for 10 years on 10th July ... if I can do it, so can you. I'll be in your corner cheering you on!!!

3:17 AM  
Blogger RT said...

Vavoom, I'm surprized! I didn't know you smoked.

It can be a pain in butt sometimes and I'm actually thinking about giving it up, myself. Have you tried anything other than the patch? I tried that once and it didn't do me a bit of good, so I'll probably go with the gum...

3:21 AM  
Blogger James d. said...

Good luck...it's certainly not an easy thing, but hopefully the many people who have quit can serve as an inspiration.

After all, Deep Throat gave up smoking in 1943!! lol

3:21 AM  
Blogger FJ said...

Good luck, mate!
I wish you well!
When my Dad quit smoking because of having pneumonia, he used to chew alot of strong mint flavoured chewing gum all the time.
Don't know if that will help you or not, but it stopped my Dad from having cravings.

...FJ.

6:42 AM  
Blogger Megan said...

I completely understand. I am in the process of weaning myself...of course it helps that I now work 12 hour days with non smokers. I absolutely refuse to smoke around non smokers unless I am in a bar. I hate the looks. and the comments about how its bad for me; I am a scientist, I know its bad for me. I'm just weak. But I am down to a pack a week, and in a few weeks I think I will be completely off the smokes.

Exercise helps me too; I can either work out and smoke and have TB like coughing fits afterward, or I can stop smoking and not go through that...

7:49 AM  
Blogger Cleveland Park Men's Club said...

Congratulations on quitting. You can do it. Many of the Gentlemen of the CPMC do...especially when out drinking...but you could be our role model. Keep at it.

10:04 AM  
Anonymous FNPhD said...

Ok, folks, I'm making the books on this one. Right now the odds are running 4:3 in favor of Vavoom quitting (6 month horizon), so place your bets now.

Side bets will be entertained.

10:56 AM  
Blogger CafeCath said...

You leave a comment about one addiction, and I come here and see you've given up another. (Blogging is a much healthier addiction...plus, you appear to be good at it!)

Congratulations!

I'm a former smoker...gave it up time and time again, unsuccessfully until almost 2 years ago. The key for me was to be honest with myself that I actually could have a cigarette anytime I wanted. (Whenever I tell myself I can't have something, I seem to want it more.)

Every day I acknowledged that I could go to the store and buy a pack of cigarettes and smoke one or the whole thing...and I asked myself "Do I REALLY WANT to?" Several times, I wanted to. But, I never REALLY wanted to. So, I didn't...not a puff.

It might sound like cheezy self help, but for me it worked better than the gum or the patch.

You can do it!!!

10:58 AM  
Blogger Jodi said...

Congrats and good luck. It's a tough thing to get through but the rewards are fantastic.

11:34 AM  
Blogger Jennifer said...

Good luck! You can do it!
I am trying to get The Man to quit smoking. Not luck yet though.

11:38 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

GREAT! You'll do it this time round. I didn't mind waiting around while you smoke actually, but it's really good for you not to smoke. I am happy that you are quitting. : )

11:44 AM  
Anonymous NMUFNPHD said...

Good, I have been telling you that for years. You know your family's medical history.

1:41 PM  
Blogger bum from jersey said...

its funny you look at smoking as soemthing that calms you down since ciggarrettes are a stimulant and not a depressant. i also found it funny you started smoking again after you parted ways with your advisor. since he was an a-hole i would figure you would start back up when you were assigned to him and quit when you left him (if you are using ciggarrettes to calm you down).

good luck! smoking is a nasty habit and a vice many cannot overcome. you did it once i am sure you can do it again.

1:48 PM  
Blogger bum from jersey said...

i was just reading through your comments and i am amazed by how many smokers read your blog. its almost exclusively smokers or former smokers. wow!

and for andrew...congrats on quitting for 10 years but between the amount of drinking and smoking you used to do, i am curious to see what a picture of your liver looks like.

1:50 PM  
Blogger dreadcow said...

Good luck, amigo!

So many guys in the Army dip and smoke, I don't even notice it anymore.

I've been known to dip when I'm on guard duty in the field and I do enjoy an occasional Black and Mild or a Swisher. If I get really really sick I'm known to buy a pack of menthols to clear up my sinuses.

So other than about once a month... not for me. As I said, good luck!

2:39 PM  
Blogger Raine said...

Good luck, V! I imagine giving up smoking is how it would be for me to give up sweets. The longest I did it was for 30 days. I ended up losing weight and looked a bit emaciated, so I rationalized my way back in to the cookie jar.

They say if you can keep up a habit for 21 days and all that.

6:37 PM  
Anonymous PMO said...

Vavoom!

From an old neighbor who used to smoke with you--GOOD decision!

Yep, I remember tailgating on your blue truck with those smokes. Or walking home and seeing you smoke as a porch monkey....ahhh, yes...the smoking days.

It's a daily challenge, my friend. I did quit while in Brazil, but it sure is hard to resist.

Congrats--you can do it!

6:39 PM  
Blogger Teri said...

I have never smoked, but I give you so much credit for giving it up. I can only equate it to my carbs and sugar addiction and realize how difficult it would be for me to give them up.

8:35 PM  
Blogger An80sNut said...

I think you know that we are all behind you, Vavoom. I've seen my mother try several times but I have a feeling that you want this bad enough to make it a reality. I'd say substitute a habit with another... better one. B)

8:43 PM  
Blogger Vavoom said...

Day one folks. No cancer sticks consumed! Thank you for all the supportive comments. I'm going to do this.

8:45 PM  
Blogger LoraLoo said...

Congrats on your first day. Good luck!!

11:07 PM  
Blogger lionsgraphics said...

Great, do0d.

i don't smoke, so i don't know how it feels. However, I helped my friend to stop smoking. So, i guess having a friend who doesn't smoke and encourages you, helps a lot :).

BTW if you're using any medication, I heard that smoking patches' side effect is insomnia and nightmares and Zyban's and Welbutrin's is the fact that it makes you like zombie (sleepy).

11:22 PM  
Blogger Jen said...

Good luck and never quit quitting! Just hang in there. Yeah, it's easy to say and I've been trying to quit for years, but just think of all the money you're going to save! And how much happier your lungs will be, especially during a frozen east coast winter!

11:30 AM  
Anonymous tomw said...

Quitting smoking is easy...I've done it lots of times!

7:52 PM  
Blogger BarbaraFromCalifornia said...

Good luck to you. I kept trying over and over to quit smoking. One day some older man I know said that one day I would just be tired of smoking and would quit! That day came 10 l/2 years ago, dispite a 2 package a day habit. I have not had a cig. since, and I feel great.

When you are ready to quit, you will, plain and simple.

9:52 PM  
Blogger GSR said...

It took me a few tries, but finally, 5 years ago, I got through the knothole and haven't touched 'em since. Best thing I ever did! Good Luck!!!

11:51 AM  
Blogger fuzk said...

I might be a little slow.. but.. Good Luck! I've tried quitting before.. but it didn't work. Let's hope it'll work for you!! =)

11:57 PM  
Blogger irishkeough said...

Quitter. I hate you.

5:07 PM  
Blogger deadpanann said...

Congrats. Stick with it and if you end up diving into the garbage can to retrieve a pack of forsaken smokes, try again later.

I'm quitting too---I'm on day 5 myself, and have smoked for 10 years. Glad to know someone else is sick of it too. I've also had 2 serious attempts in the past, one of which lasted about 6 or 7 months.

Two people close to me have died of cancer recently. One of them was a smoker, one of them was not. Both suffered. That was my big motivation to try again. Screw cancer and premature death, ya know?

The patch has really taken the edge off for me. Sore spots on my arms (and wickedly weird dreams at night) are the only drawbacks.

It can be done even though most people regard it as near impossible. I can't tell you how many people have literally LAUGHED when I told them I was quitting. Every time I want a smoke I think of those assholes and take a deep breath. Refuse to give them the satisfaction of being right.

I know there are alot of websites with info on quitting and withdrawal symptoms and stuff, but I found this one at www.stopsmokingcenter.net that had alot of info on withdrawal symptoms that I had never seen before. Being a scientist you might be better informed, but I did not know that the "spaced out" feeling you have when you quit smoking is related to your body's purging of carbon monoxide. They talked about most of the withdrawal symptoms as proof that your body is healing. Looking at it that way has been helpful. God I'm only on day 5 and here I am--turning into one of those annoying know it alls who has the answers everyone else is looking for. ACK!

What I meant to say was good luck!

12:30 AM  

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