Thursday, September 08, 2005

10 Minutes.

It's in the first ten minutes that my day is decided. Honestly. I typically wake up feeling either a) In a great mood and energized (this is rare) or b) In a terrible mood and tired. Unfortunately these ten little minutes have a strangle hold over the rest of the day. I've tried to change that, over and over again. The phenomenon persists.

As Immanuel Kant would argue, a phenomenon is an object as perceived by the senses. I'm particularly sensitive to how I perceive whatever situation I'm in. Some people maintain a positive interpretation to sensory cues of their current situation. I'm beginning to think that I'm simply a negative person. As such, the phenomena I perceive are continually interpreted as negative.

When I was young, I was encouraged to never be satisfied, to always strive for more. At what point does that attitude become a detriment? I wonder if that approach simply feeds a negative interpretation of your situation. I mean, really, is saying that nothing is ever good enough a good idea? If that's the case, then how does one combat complacency and despondency?


Blogger GSR said...

With 7 of us here at home, the morning starts very early for me and it usually takes me a few hours to figure out what kind of day I'm going to have. The first 10 minutes for me are usually spent changing a diaper or fixing a bottle and frankly, I think those important yet mindless simple tasks prevent me from thinking or worrying too much about what the day holds in store. Generally, by mid morning, after talking to my boss or a customer, I'll know if this particular day is headed for the crapper.

Satisfied? Pretty much I can end my day fairly satisfied with my "performance", so to speak. The question for me is have I reached the point of such incredible satisfaction that I've "self actualized" (maslow) Not even close, but the satisfaction I find day to day in the simple stuff is fulfilling enough. How's that for a bunch of psycho-babble mumbo jumbo?

9:57 AM  
Blogger Megan said...

I know what you mean...I was raised to believe that if I achieved one thing, it wasn't quite good enough because with a little extra work I could have had the thing above it.

Failure was the most horrible thing in my world. I definitely got a moment of clarity sometime after being asked to leave my PhD program. I cried for a week. And then one morning I woke up and realized I was still alive, the failure had not killed me and I was not going to be living in a box on the street just because I wasn't as perfect as I thought I was.

Now I try to take each day at a time, work as hard as I am able for that day, and I am learning to let go of it at the end of the day. Go home before 8 or 9 o'clock. And generally just enjoy my life a little more. Its hard. But I"m doing better. Just trying to find that balance you were talking about: being satisfied, but still doing my best.

12:52 PM  
Blogger Teri said...

Megan great words of advice.

I feel the same way about my work right now. No matter how much effort I put in, I can always and should do better. I wake up every morning with my heart racing and thinking about my job and what I should do to be better than I am. My school doesn't help because the standards my principal sets is so high, that I think I am coming to accept the fact I will never be any good at my job. No matter how much you do or how many hours you put in, she wants more. Hence, I feel nothing I do is ever good enough. Does this make me a negative person? I don't think so, but it does make me feel bad about myself. If you find out how to combat it, please share it with me. I think you will find a lot of people are in the same boat.

8:27 PM  
Blogger mis_nomer said...

We should trade glasses.

9:39 PM  
Blogger Davydgrey said...

Vavoom, you are my hero. You quoted Kant. I bet we could take a survey and only 1 out of 10 people could name Kant as a philosopher, let alone quote his philosophy. See what a college education will get you...

10:05 PM  
Blogger An80sNut said...

I'll note the exception of relationships here because otherwise, you might not have gotten married. Heck, dating would have been tough.

I do think that using visualization techniques can improve critical performances but I'm a pretty low pressure person and don't push perfection. I count chaos theory and Murphy's Law among my main philosophies.

11:28 PM  
Blogger Denise said...

Forget about it. I tagged you for the meme game.....see my blog for details!

12:55 AM  
Blogger Fred said...

That attitude never becomes a detriment. Lifelong learning keeps a person refreshed and ready for the challenges they face.

As noted above, it's about balance. That's why I finally left the corporate world, I simply couldn't achieve that balance. However, my attitude hasn't changed as a teacher. It never will.

9:31 AM  

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